Drawings about Failure

These drawings are a visual map of how I believe failure as an identity can work. When I say failure as an identity I mean someone who evaluates themselves as less than normal or standard due to a mistake or fault in their past. A failed marriage, unemployment, not being able to lose ten pounds by summer, etc. When these unfortunate events happen if the conditions are right we can create a cyclical process where our self esteem is continually lowered and our ability and confidence are eroded away. Please read the captions for more information.

Three Month Drawing Project

Over the last three months I have attempted to create a drawing a day. These selected works are the best of the series.

I created this series to have fun finding finding subjects in a haze of imperfections. The works begin with many light random marks attempting to catch the general outline or position of the subject. After numerous bad guesses a subject slowly emerges on top of a field of searching marks.

Heavy Light

I created these drawings as a way to recreate my world through a vocabulary of light and heavier touch. In essence to bring parts of reality into the studio and digest them in drawing.

Mark Series

This series was started in attempt to make smaller versions of the Submerged Mass Series. The circular motions of the blue paint stands in for the central forms in the Submerged Mass Series.

Submerged Mass Series

I created this series as a way to gain perspective on my  existence. I had trouble coming to grips with my life in the grand scale. Space, planetary movements, rotation of galaxies. I just couldn’t quite get beyond the vastness. I wanted to encapsulate all that I feel I am or could be in a visual manner within an ambiguous field. And in doing so I may be able to imagine or understand how I can really be such a small drop in the ocean contributing to the experience of everything that is. I am incapable of rendering my existence because I am still in flux or changing. All I can try and do is give a passing snapshot of what I may be feeling at one time. So I begin with a field of color and just start making marks until I feel I have an image that feels right within it’s space